Im just about done. My whole life I've suffered PTSD and for what? To become homeless with a family who depended on me? I can;t even take care of myself. Who was I to think I was good enough or even deserved to be happy? I'm a nobody. I can't help anybody. I've been abandoned and I can't do this anymore. Everyone always told me everything will be ok but I've been hearing that all my life. The only way I think things will get better for Me is if I shoot myself in the head. At least that way Elisa and Tristan can move on with their lives without me holding them back. Maybe, hopefully someone out there is willing to help them. Cause I can't.