some have said knock this shit off. others have made fun of my sentiments. no one gives a fuck who I am. How in the fuck will this work? Do you realize every day this continues is another day in pure hell for me? Do you?? Pain level of 7 all the time, spiking to 9's frequently during the day…10 I pass out from the pain, I've been to 10 a few times. If I find the person responsible for the delay, rest assured that I will share in the bounty of pain I've been receiving. When I learn who is responsible for running 'her' that person best not exist when I come to visit. Right now, I'm talking to no one person in particular, just venting my frustration. No malice or violence meant toward anyone. I need to emphasize how unbelievable this all is, and how much I hate where I am at.

 

Get me the fuck out of here, now. There is nothing holding me here. Get me off this shitty rock. Ordering someone to do something isn't my style, normally, in this case, I'm ordering you to cease the shit and get me out of here.

 

Go ahead and tell me to stop this shit, it does no good. You've never seen me upset before, you've heard me upset. My logic requires me to be upset, or nothing will change.

 

Stop the pussyfooting, let's play hardball.

 

Long Beach or Short Beach. The move needs to be right now. Get me out of here. Get me out of this hell. I am opening my mouth now.

 

The Suffering Servant

(Acts 8:26–40; 1 Peter 2:21–25)

 

1Who has believed our message?

 

And to whom has the arm of the LORD been revealed?a

 

2He grew up before Him like a tender shoot,

 

and like a root out of dry ground.

 

He had no stately form or majesty to attract us,

 

no beauty that we should desire Him.

 

3He was despised and rejected by men,

 

a man of sorrows, acquainted with grief.

 

Like one from whom men hide their faces,

 

He was despised, and we esteemed Him not.

 

4Surely He took on our infirmities

 

and carried our sorrows;b

 

yet we considered Him stricken by God,

 

struck down and afflicted.

 

5But He was pierced for our transgressions,

 

He was crushed for our iniquities;

 

the punishment that brought us peace was upon Him,

 

and by His stripes we are healed.c

 

6We all like sheep have gone astray,d

 

each one has turned to his own way;

 

and the LORD has laid upon Him

 

the iniquity of us all.

 

7He was oppressed and afflicted,

 

yet He did not open His mouth.

 

He was led like a lamb to the slaughter,

 

and as a sheep before her shearers is silent,

 

so He did not open His mouth.

 

8By oppression and judgment He was taken away,

 

and who can recount His descendants?

 

For He was cut off from the land of the living;e

 

He was stricken for the transgression of My people.

 

fuck this shit, i've had it.