Not to be a dramafag but going to be

anon is probably bipolar/schizo/combo of both

anon has been here since 4chan Q

was in the thread and witnessed first Q post while researching vegas shooting

anon is tired, weary, depressed, without hope, sad, scared shitless

anon has 4 kids and a wife

anon is broke af, cannot find work, drinking heavily on the daily and suicidal bigly

almost went thought with it a few nights ago

please tell me what is the fucking point in all of this

this world/place/realm is fucking shit

a literal satanic shit hole

why should i stick around? what is the point? i would rather be oblivious/ignorant and be like cypher from the matrix but i can't go back

i dream of blowing my brains out all the time

will it get better?

or should i just fucking do it?

>>19491028

You don't understand. I love them to death. Fucks given = infinite

my brain chemistry is so incredibly fried that i can disassociate

i really don't know how to explain it

>>19491017

i know

but my mind is like scrambled eggs at this point

honest to God there are day where I feel like I would be doing them a favor by going through with it

maybe they will be better off in the long run without having to deal with my craziness

>>19491144

i agree

that is why I will check out

i prayed to God to take me in my sleep but he won't do it for some reason

>>19491086

I feel your pain my friend

>is the possibility that suicide leads to an afterlife full of all my regrets in a hell of darkness. endlessly stuck reliving failures and pain

i feel like i am already there

sometimes I think we are already in hell

trapped in a loop of pain and suffering

ready to ascend i am

>>19491312

i am eternally damned then