You're broke af, cannot find work, and suicidal bigly because your stupid ass is drinking heavily (squandering the little your family has) on the daily and online looking for a pity party instead of handling your shit. You're a fucking loser.
Do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived; neither the immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor sexual perverts, nor thieves, nor the greedy, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor robbers will inherit the kingdom of God.
1 Corinthians 6:9-10
Your behavior does seem very Jewish. Selfish, habitually complaining, weak, destructive, etc. Is that who you want to known as?