>>1951047
np, and no, they tried to send me to one a number of times as a child but I was obsessed with "being normal" - all the victims have their own "shows" thus i guess they let me have my little fantasy that I could ever be a normal person. "I'm normal" - when you see the Alan tapes that'll be a catch phrase I bet, because for several years of my life it was the greatest running gag of my life - the laughable joke that someone like me could ever be "normal"
It'll make more sense when you see how messed up things were.
But anyway, they surrounded me with sadists and tortured me on camera, that's how they drive people to suicide or make them murderers. As I said before the largest bully of my young life was a cultist Rob Sator - and he robbed me and was a Sadist, and he would kick cats like football and demand I do it too.
Long story.. and it's not easy for me to tell but well, the answer to your question is they surround us with assholes that want us to murder people and some people have weak enough minds that they accept that to "belong"