>And I KNOW that there are Beings of SOME SORT that are on here that are more evolved than I feel like is possible for me right now. So we're all at different "levels", although we know those are only to serve our purposes.
Yep. I just learned a lesson today via my experience and those I've come in contact with in these interesting times:
I am destined, but I cannot force it. Trying to force things is going against God's (or whatever you call it) plan. I tried initiating fasting for seven days, today is day 1.5.
I did not prepare.
I did very little research.
It did not go well.
I believe God reached out through a loved companion to help me realize that what I was attempting to do was replace my lack of Faith in the plan and in Truth; my attempting to force these radical changes RIGHT NOW were misguided and foolhardy.
I was reminded that I was chosen because of who I am (not identity wise, but my 'philosophies', personality, and general spirituality. The things that the identity tries (but fails) to accurately describe) and as long as that person doesn't change (or it changes for the better in accordance with God's plan), then all is well.
Naturally, I will still pray and meditate and lead a good life, but it was a fantastic lesson for my ego and a lesson of how important my dear friends are to my growth.