Anonymous ID: 5f899a Nov. 19, 2023, 11:52 a.m. No.19943865   ๐Ÿ—„๏ธ.is ๐Ÿ”—kun

One last hurrah. The decision is made and set but the goodbye never made. Excuses, I know, but there is a method to this madness. I know I'm monitored so they'll be able to confirm whether or not I keep my word on the matter. I just don't give a fuck anymoar.

Anonymous ID: 5f899a Nov. 19, 2023, 12:09 p.m. No.19943919   ๐Ÿ—„๏ธ.is ๐Ÿ”—kun   >>4001

>>19943902

The guilt is for me. I used one thing I'm giving up, that is quite nasty now that I think about it, to break down pride, the other for r&r. The two are habitual and routine, I need to associate personal guilt to break both. The motivation is planted, the decision set, the goodbye just needs to be made. I thought I could do complete cold turkey on motivation alone. I realize now I can't. I need negative reinforcement to see it through.

Anonymous ID: 5f899a Nov. 19, 2023, 12:55 p.m. No.19944158   ๐Ÿ—„๏ธ.is ๐Ÿ”—kun

CH label firmly planted in the front of thoughts and attached to past shame for negative reinforcement to achieve positive result. Now the test to see just how weak I really am beginsโ€ฆ