thank you, and yea, I've been in some deep soul searching but I think I'll be fine. Partly just thinking about the past and realizing what exactly was going on for the first time. Realizing my whole life was a joke has changed me quite a bit, I really don't know who I am anymore but I try and help as best I can. : ) Whoever I am now I don't think I'll ever be as bad off as I used to be and that's nice to know.