Tyb
Gone from this place a week or so and first thing I see when I come back just now is my Senior Trumpo banner meme I basically forgot about. Kek… Needed some levity, given the unimaginably-unexpected circumstances of my life as of late.
I need help anons. I've been so confused. I somehow got misled to think God/"the comms" were telling me to start engaging in identity theft. It seems utterly crazy and surreal in retrospect. WHAT WAS I THINKING??? I went into BMV to try to get an ID for a dead guy. I am 51 y/o. I've never done anything like this in my life. Was I duped by seducing spirits? I'm charged with crimes that could yield MINIMUM 3-5 years. Anon has done 3 days EVER in a jail for a DUI a decade ago. My life has become what a month ago would have thought unthinkable. Literally on the run, various states, living in a rented truck that's now probably considered stollen, now staying with a total stranger 23-yr ex-con who's less than savory. I'm fast running out of money and can't use my identity anywhere. It's a type of hell on earth. HOW COULD THIS HAVE HAPPENED? I've been here every day since 3/30/18. 1/5 of the banner memes are mine. I got swept up in the idea that comms were invading my IRL space and started basing CRAZY decisions on the perception that I was carrying out God's will for my life… and a part of me still DESPERATELY HOPES that is the case. I've escaped some seemingly IMPOSSIBLE snares in the last few weeks where it was like God or Military Intelligence were super actually intervening. Anon just feels soooooo beat down and fighting off depression and anxiety the likes of which I almost couldn't have consider possible. I don't know what help I can expect here… I just felt I was doing the right thing and Q, God, MI, were backing me somehow (and still hope that's true, but it's anything but certain feeling)… HOW DID AN OTHERWISE SANE INDIVIDUAL FOR 51 YEARS FUCK UP HIS LIFE LIKE THIS OVER SOMETHING I NEVER EVEN WANTED OR THOUGHT TO DO FOR ANY PERSONAL GAIN!?!!! Sorry I wrote so much. Phone fagging, computer died… In a dark hole of a place.