>You live in seclusion, maybe in some sort of poverty and have little contact with people or even find it difficult to leave your house because there's an asshole lurking around every corner who could annoy you in a second?
That's my exact situation anon fren!
One of my frens died, the other two just want to believe in the bs stuff like the earth is flat and JFK Jr is alive. One of them I had a bad fight with, still love her, but we can't communicate, and the other one we only communicate once in a while.
I live very rural so it's easy for me to stay isolated. My fam all live in other states. The area I live in looks a lot like your pic, so I do have that beauty to enjoy.
What has really helped me is Prayer. Knowing that even if nothing here on earth works out for the better, which I really think it will though, but even if that were to happen, I have eternity with God in a perfect realm. But God and prayer and the occasional person to relate with has kept me going. Some of my fam seem to be coming around though which is hopeful!