If you only knew how miserable this body is. How everyday sucks to be me.

Every single day I think about leaving. Thank you for keeping me safe, and allowing me to see my kids graduate from University. On the outside I lead a blessed life. Inside I want to die. No love. Just alters switching from one person to the other. never following through on what plans are made.

i can't live in misery like this. you've never officially told me who I am. all I know is that the world is expecting me. this is so fucked up. so very lonely and all I ever get is silence