Question: Does my presence here matter in the least? Does it matter at all? Right now, my life isn't fun because of who I am. It should be a fuking amusement park, my life, but it isn't. Why was I chosen? Why was nothing told to me? Why was there always insinuation but never any directness? When I taught in my church, at that time I wasn't even aware that JC had done the same. I was a kid, 13, who hadn't read the bible but by then had carried with me in my wallet. Dad had a vasectomy before I was born? My brothers thought I was a bastard child and wanted to kill me. Called me the Antichrist all the time. When you're five years old, what does 'antichrist' mean anyway?
Ya, are you sure you got the right man? It's true, I try to live as sin free as possible, thou shalt not steal, be adulterous, tell the truth etc. I've never seen a dead person, even though I have been dead before. It's trippy to say that. My wife says 'you're just not good at dying' Truth, I should have been dead years ago.
It just seems like I'm spinning my wheels. Everyone wants change, wants to defeat Evil at every turn but they haven't done shit in the way of actioning those wishes. Does my being alive influence others? It seems when my view changes, the world follows suit. Cannabis wasn't even close to being legal until 6.5 years ago, now it's 'legal' in most states. The Deepstate was a myth before I woke up, now it is a fact they exist. The WEF has been exposed. Everything all of the bakers have drawn to my attention has changed….but how?
All I want is a sit down with someone who can answer all my questions. My life has been for this, and I'd like to not screw it up. Help me help you finish this.
It's is very high time that you tell me who I am.