Jesus Christ is your Lord & Savior.
https://www.livingchristian.org/bible-verses-blogs/11-bible-verses-for-those-doubting-their-faith
Everyone has doubts, IMO, but prayer brings us closer to God. God will never let go of us, once we have reached out our hand to Him to help us. Say little prayers throughout the day. God loves us and wants us to have a relationship with Him and to trust Him. We cannot possibly understand the mind of God because we are not Him. But our lack of understanding should not threaten our Faith.
God Bless you Anon.
May you find the Peace that Passes Understanding.
Look up at the stars and consider who created the Universe. Then decide.
Job 38:4-7
New International Version
4
“Where were you when I laid the earth’s foundation?
Tell me, if you understand.
5
Who marked off its dimensions? Surely you know!
Who stretched a measuring line across it?
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On what were its footings set,
or who laid its cornerstone—
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while the morning stars sang together
and all the angels[a] shouted for joy?
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