Let's start the process. Above everything, I need to focus on is what I have in my head and how to spread it as quickly in a manner that is as fun as possible. 7 years of having the experience that led me here wasn't fun. Yes, I should be dead, I know this. Not only am I alive, and in perfect condition, except the one thing that lends provenance to my story.

To put things very plainly. It hurts to be me. You know this. It seems my sins are being paid for while I'm alive. Thanks be to God my sins are few, and minor. God I'd hate to feel what real sin feels like.

This is the tribulation of the 40 nights and days. Guess if I'm still alive, we're gonna win? What's the plan? The fact I'm here, talking to strangers that I've met before, says wonders about my level of sanity…Listen you know I'm all alone, 40 days remember? Send me some fun, please. Yes, I understand many are in harm's way, and probably have died keeping me safe…One day I'll do my best to comprehend who I am and give thanks properly to those who made my life a reality.