I sincerely know, you have been deeply moved by the suffering of others (you are motivated by love) and your instincts have always served you well, although it seems - you are growing exponentially and the enormity is dawning within you - this is a good thing and takes time to settle upon the soul. How could you have been more proactive? This is an unhelpful nonsense, it is done. So, keep up the fight, fight, fight.
>but few ever contemplate it.
I find majority do, but never talk about it. Your perception is flawed due to lack of observation of others or not having deep conversations with many people about personal processes and struggles, to see that we all contemplate in different manners.
We are made from the dust of the universe, all interconnected by a curious life force state, magnetic like flow that allows for 'De ja vous' or a communication, from the universe directly, which speaks to all living things without words and a clarity that doesnt come from self but outside - straight at - and all around you. Not unlike when you sense someones intent, staring at you, you swing around and there they are… it is natural to speak with the universe, it is always lifting you up and loving every thing you do…living life.
Well, god gave you what? You can call it what ever you want, you have a mind of your own, use it. Like spitting on a seed and planting it, that seed will grow specifically to your DNA and RNA elemental requirements, nourishing the body. When we speak to the universe, the universe speaks to us… non linear. We have access to all knowledge at all times. You just have to tap it.
It is our job to drain the swamp, that is why we have this board and Q who is helping us find our way. Every post, dig, pray and proof has been an instrumental growth towards where we are going.
>I now thank the Lord everyday for not only sparing my life but for granting His Grace, Mercy, and Intervention for where I failed to do my due diligence.
FFS mate, counting failures is a waste of time, be aware of them and learn from them, then start counting the amazing actions you make everyday. That attitude is a healthy state of reality. This is what holds true and projects all future actions into winning and continues the heart centered actions in an honorable manner.
Godspeed to you and yours.
WWG1WGA