I regret most the way I treated Maja
Dear God
I pray that your plan for me involves me finding happiness with my soulmate, and that a soulmate is out there somewhere waiting to connect with me. Someone who comprehends my view of the world and makes me feel safe and sound in their arms. Someone who brings smiles, laughter and joy and a daily dose of pure magic. I pray that life still has that experience in store for me. Amen.
Thank you for the encouragement, Anon. I wish my mind weren‘t so preoccupied with romance.
That‘s the feeling I‘ve had all these years. But I‘ve grown weary hoping I am feeling the correct things. I have started to accept that maybe I have been living in unwarranted optimism, and that there will not be any big twist to these years of pain.