get yerself some ashwagandha, take 500-1000mgs/day
when anon was feeling this way in December last year, a kind anon suggested this, and it has helped with mood and feeling hopeful instead of empty, anon takes it almost every day now
anon is paying it forward to you with the info
also
PRAY
don't forget this is a spiritual war, and (you) are being targeted by (them) - pray for protection from God that the evil spirits cannot affect you