I can assure you that you were cursing long before me. I tell you how things work, it is up to you to do the work. It is not easy even when you become accomplished, you still have to be reborn everyday. I would love to see you do well, but it is not up to me. It is always hard. Here is an example, you can't defend yourself but you can defend the lives of others. That is how it works, not easy by any stretch of the imagination. Ignorance is bliss.