Sorry, lads. It's something of a science project, but only half of you can know that fact.
I was kinda the white rabbit at least 6 years ago. Sauce is the collages. News flash - we're all dead. This is a fucking sim. An evil, wrong-headed, immoral sim. You're watching a movie? Fuck - you're literally in the "Matrix". Q can't help here. Your constant Deja Vu is what's left of "you" trying to reconcile the different sim runs - all similar but slightly different due to chaos. Wake up? Wake up and realize that you're dead? What kind of choice?