I once thought as you… lost everything.. house, wife, kids, dog died, no job, injured,drunk… The most peaceful day I ever had was when I decided to end it… no more cares… Now there I was alive yet at peace… total peace because I was letting go… Thank God that he showed me it was possible to feel peace… loose everything and not die… I felt the peace while alive!!!! so I changed my life…
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Yes… I also seem to need many daily fixes… many…many…many… but I can quit at any time…lol