muslim prayers in official circumstances in the west.
from 2015:
https://www.economist.com/erasmus/2015/04/17/a-delicate-invocation
the vid is from a council meeting (Oldham, UK in 2015 apparently)
I didn't realize your problem was this deep.
Go see a specialized doctor although suicide might be the brighter solution in your particular case. Your special kind of jealousy is incurable but you still can bleach your anus if you like to try and keep up appearances.