It's my own fault, yes, this is my own undoing. What needs to happen next is to fix my problem. Don't know how. You set this up, to begin with, so you tell me. Happiness is there for me, but it will take a lot of effort to push me over the top. Please try. Heart Attack, Mental Breakdown, I'm feeling it all might happen. If you can help me, please help me. My state of mind is almost to the fuck it phase. Callouses are growing rapidly when it comes to this.

Do me a solid and help me get out of my situation. A change would be good, a change for the better. I'd like to see my kids more and enjoy what's left of my private life. Sorry if this is more work, but I'm at my best when joyful. I can move the stars when I'm happy, and can't move shit when I'm not.

Help an old dying man do his job so I can make the world great again. When I die, if you do it right, you'll have to wipe the smile from my face. There's no way I can do this in the state of mind my environment provides me.

Now that we have some control, you can do this.