I don't care what happens next, why should I when it has no bearing on my life whatsoever? You're not getting it dude, I've been completely infantilized here. I can't solve my fucking problems if I wanted to because there's just not enough money and no way to make it. I'm just fucking done after this, I'm tuning this shit out and just rotting in my room. I don't give a fuck about her at this point, she's a mirage like everything else in my life. Fuck her and fuck you.
I'm selfish, I don't care what you think of it. After 7 years I truly don't care. The minute I hear no, this is over.
What fucking point even is there about caring about other people when I'm not even allowed to take care of myself? Fuck yourself to death you fucking bitch. I hate all of you more than I can even put in words