get me the fuck out of here. insanity is rapidly approaching. Rid me of my opposition dear lord. at ever turn, at every sign of happiness, evil shows up. There's no way that there will be more than a decade left of my life, and it gets shorter every day. find me, transport me to a place called happiness, where commonsense rules and feelings are evaluated. this is a living hell, fucking hell, brutal mind torture. we need to brighten my light, it's getting dark here.

heart palpitations now, stress is literally eating me alive. you think everything's cool, inside it's a mess. there's a hardening going on inside of me. my feelings are getting harder, my emotions colder, and along with it my sense of humor and laughter. it stems from not having an instruction manual i can trust, or information that's trustworthy. something directly from you would be nice. nothing is real, everything is spoon fed in small doses so people think they've 'discovered' something no one else has. no one is listening to me, they can not understand my words, it's garbled. it's like a curse was placed on my voice. get me out of this mess that surrounds me, yes, this is me asking you for help. if not, there might not be a heart beating inside me anymore. 7.5 years of wonderment, with no proof or directed to information of trustable value…fix me, so the world can be fixed. Let me pull Excalibur from the stone.

Let me be me once again…so there is no acting from anyone anymore.

Someone reading this has the financial means to help. Consider it a loan against action. Karma is real, and karma points are too.