I gotta get out of this town
Nah I got people threatening me and chasing me down on the street. I'm not safe here anymore.
I want turn my life around but this town is a dead end and I don't have any options to better myself.
I need to get to a doctor and get back on medication instead of going to the street. I want to be s functioning person in society. I want to give back and have fulfilling life and that isn't possible here.
Please help.
I have neurological disabilities. Draconian policies and a defunct pharmaceutical industrial complex make it extremely challenging to find a doctor who can help me. Last time i tried to get help was 2022 and it took almost a year to see the psychiatrist to get diagnosed. I'm not skitzo. I have adhd and ptsd. Overactive Fight or flight response combines with the cortisol and adrenaline of the adhd anger outbursts to create over reactions that make it feel like my brain won't shut off..the neuro chemical response feels wrong..I try so hard not to get mad because the neurotransmitter respond in my brain keeps the elevated emotions going for way longer than it should..this is why I do not joke around and horseplay with people. I've survived on coping skills and behavioral modification without medication for almost my entire life..I've had to learn to change on my own..its worked for the most part but it's definitely hasn't been enough. Regretting actions while frustrated causes a downward spiral of negative emotions.
The Helplessness.
It's all very complicated and I'm not asking for sympathy. I just hope you'll understand that I realized this was out of my control when I was a child and my parents wouldn't put me on medication because they are former drug addicts and current alcoholics. Its a sacrifice id make every single time for them.