Do any anons have recommendations for what to do for PTSD? I've put this off for a long time because I don't want to deal with it, but I think I probably should.
Thank you anon, I'll try.
Thank you, I feel dumb for putting this off for as long as I have. Just tried not thinking about it, but that doesn't work. God Bless you too anon.
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Thank you anon.
I'll try. I used to love the outdoors. I've gone fishing a couple times in the past few months and I liked that. I just feel on edge even when I'm trying to relax, and it feels like the exact second I relax, something jumps at me and bites me. I've kind of developed a fear of being relaxed if that makes sense. I try to fight it but the hypervigilance just doesn't go away.
A few different things, but my dad killing himself was the biggest thing I think. It was years ago. We had just started to become close. Trump had just won and I had so much optimism, he did too, but my mom was divorcing him. My mom threatened to sue me for his money so I just signed it over to her.
If you mean it seemed suspicious, then yeah I agree, and it's part of why it messes me up so much.
I'm currently getting my amplifier for my guitar fixed, and I do like to kayak. I wish I had a dog but I wouldn't be able to bring it to work with me. I quit drinking about 3 years ago when I realized something was wrong. The only time I could cry was when I was extremely drunk. Went to AA for a while and it did seem to help a lot. I should go again, even though I don't feel the desire to drink really.
I don't know why but your comment here actually does help. Empathy I guess. I'm at work so I'm trying to not cry but thank you at means a lot.
I had some sauerkraut this morning because my stomachs been upset, maybe it'll help with that too.
No, I have a good job and money. It's the betrayal by her that messed me up. She got a lawyer and was ready to sue. She could've just asked. I think she might have even directly caused my dad's death more than just making hm miserable.
What? Dude vote for Trump or whoever you want. I'm just a damaged rural anon looking for help.
He killed himself and she threatened to sue me for the life insurance money. I don't care what you believe but I hope you, like me, can find peace.