That sounds just like me. I remember (((them))) pushing athiesm hard, it was during Obama's presidency as well. I felt like God had abandoned us during that time (foolish thoughts by me) because I was watching the destruction of our country and my family. I then realized after a few Q posts back during CBTS, that we were fighting pure satanic evil. If these "elite" people were worshipping the devil, then I must fight on the side of good, the side of God.
I started to pray again, I started to look for forgiveness and only then did I realize he never left my side. I always had this gut feeling that the world wasn't "right". This whole experience has shown me that I was led astray by the evils that reigned over us, and that Trump winning the presidency was God's divine intervention, to save his creation.