>the country I love with all my heart
>feel impatient because I want to help him
>feeling powerless to help
This pretty much explains for me as well.
> (were I in charge, but I'm NOT)
We only know a fraction of what is going on. If we knew the whole plan like Q does, maybe we would have the patience. But since we are only given teaser drops, it is no wonder our patience has run so thin. The excitement followed by let downs has all but exhausted me. My addiction here is ending because of the never ending roller coaster. Self preservation.