Anons, Q, I'm trying to get ahead in life. I've got a small homestead and I'm building a fence for goats. My epilepsy is holding me back. Finances are holding me back.Big pharma is like a tax that I have to pay to feel a warped version of "normal."I just want a normal life. I just want the opportunity to live a normal life. Please pray for me anons. I'll get this project done even if it kills me. I don't care anymore. I'll finish out of pure spite for my circumstances.
Hah, I do, it helps. I want a cure though. I'm tired of being only part person.
I want to believe that. I yelled at God today when I was struggling. I know its true, but I feel like for some reason my life has to be bad and I don't understand why. I feel like I'm cursed. My medication makes mood swings a problem. Why would God make me wrong?
Thank you anon, I needed to hear that. I have a lot to be thankful about. I hope there will be cures soon.
Thank you, too, anon. MSG is monosodium glutamate, glutamate is the neurotransmitter that causes seizures when GABA is too low.
Thank you anon. I wish I understood but I don't, and I guess I don't need to. I just don't feel useful. It feels like when I got diagnosed four years ago my life stopped, without anything in the future to look forward to. I'll pray more and be more grateful. I know there's more to life than waiting for the next seizure, I just haven't felt that way in a long time.
I'm doing that now. I'm grateful for what I have. I like to read and I'm glad I can do that. I'm glad I'm here, and that I was able to contribute research for a while.
This really is accurate. I feel like I live in the past. I'm 34 and feel like I'm 70, and I spend all my time thinking about the past, especially before I got diagnosed. I took it all for granted. I should be a pillar of salt by now with how much I run through old memories. I'll read the Bible.