Elsagate.
What will you say to your grandkids?
Will you tell them you gave up when things got tough?
Will you tell them that you caved in under the pressure and couldn't hold space and pray for GOOD to finally defeat EVIL?
What do you think people who have been "red pilled" for decades think when they hear shit like that. Prob fuck you and good riddance.
You do you anon. Just remember to try not to have regrets in life.
Life tests your strength. Step the fuck up, hold strong, or buckle the fuck down and get out of the rest of our way, while we do the RIGHTEOUS work. It would be nice to have you alongside, but you need to master your own courage and demons first.