dChan - Q Origins Project Archive

I am drunk right now.

It may be the only way I can share this with you all.

I was just listening to a SGT report video.

I was lucky because I never was molested by a pedophile. But I saw one.

I had a mentally ill mother who I can say was abused(I felt it and saw it in her eyes when she was an old woman)

So, this was about when I was 12 or 13 at the oldest. My mother took care of a beautiful, 3 yr old girl. A platinum blond little thing. I was suppose to deliver her to her father occasionally.

For some reason, she would send me down to his house. The girl was already there but she would send me down there. I remember not wanting to go because of one time before.The before being that I was there when he opened the doer, naked and she was next to him, naked. I remember not wanting to go into the house and his trying to get me to go in.

I then remember trying to tell my mother I didn't want to go down there. Please don't make me go down there….and all she could say was why? WHY don't you want to go there?

I could not say. This was back in the early 8-'s. We didn't talk about such things.

My mother was sending me to a pedophile and she knew she was.

Also, there was my brother. She made him her slave. This I can't go into.

I know she was abused while my grandmother had to work. I could feel it. She drank and did other drugs and smoked. When she was older, she quit drinking and smoking and could no longer hide who and what she really was.

BUT, I did not abuse. I did not take advantage of my child nor try to subject her to horrors, just because it might have happened to me.

I AM SO SORRY!! I did not was not able to speak up for the abuse you suffered, when I knew it was going on. I am so, so sorry.

I wish I had been older or stronger or not beaten down by a sick parent.

I hope this little girl made it past her abusing father.

If you see something SAY SOMETHING. I have lived with this for decades. I am so sorry.