I'm the depressed anon. Nothing in my life is going right. My furnace broke last night and I simply don't have the cash on hand to pay to fix it, unless its magically like 50 bucks. Before know it all boomers and gen x start chiming in, I've done all the testing required and know what the part is, but not if I can still buy the part, and with 240 volts, I can't put it in myself, I don't need MORE hospital bills. Although honestly dying outright wouldn't be that bad. I have nothing to look forward to. I'm not trying to be demoralizing or shitty or shill, but its been ten years and where am I? Still paycheck to paycheck, still being kicked in the gut every day by old people. Today I kind of hit my limit. I smoked weed after having been off it for a while and it calmed me down. If our business dies, I don't know what I'll do for work without being able to take a clean piss test. I just want to believe its possible for things to get better. If there was just one single thing I could look at and say "there it is, that thing improved. Not a promise off in the future, but there right in front of me is something positive."