Here are some resources to help you unfuck your brain
https://www.unz.com/runz/american-pravda-oddities-of-the-jewish-religion/
https://ifamericaknew.org/cur_sit/shahak.html#1-1
https://www.haaretz.com/israel-news/.premium-why-more-u-s-jews-will-walk-off-birthright-this-summer-1.6269655