Read Hebrews 8:7-14 and then go look in the mirror and call yourself a retard.
John 14:6, Christ makes no exception. Get right with god, you were told.
Yet you deny the sacred text. You delude yourself.
Hate to break it to you, but if you think you're speaking with god, and what he is saying is not congruent with holy scripture, that's not god you're speaking with.
I told you to read verses, if you have issues with them, seek help.