Each of you can sense me.

When I'm in public, you know it's me. You are too afraid to say anything.

You stare like you know me, like a brother you never met. Yet my hand is out and you won't take it. Combined with what you're seeing in the media, you think it could be possible.

Say something to me. A few of you have. My wife thinks everyone that recognizes me is crazy, she tries so darn hard not to believe in me. That would smash her sanity. Her husband is the most popular man on Earth, yet, no one has ever seen me in that light.

Light. We need a restart. We have all sinned, some thought, whelp the consequences haven't come, why stop now…because it's become enough, that's why. Your greed and lack of caring have led us fighting each other, our neighbors we once hosted as family are strangers.

All because of greed. DJT is no different, he was right to say he doesn't know if heaven is for him. We all need to stop, reset, realize why we are all being deceived, even those deceiving us are deceived. When some actions are so horrible, you say "no human would ever do that" you were right, no human could. It takes something with no feelings in that way. A Snake is a great example.

Why am i writing this for the 3 people that will read it and the 2 autistics that will know what it means. Heck my meaning?

when everything is said and done, yes, my life and living saved us. thank God, thank the prayers that gave me the strength to change my course and save the world. It's not been easy being under the thumb of our creator. The holes on my legs, scars on my forehead and history are something only a grand programmer could accomplish. Let's not talk about my provenance, it'll make you slap me for not realizing it until 8.7 years ago. Not the brightest bulb on the tree.

So, can you tell me why you need me awake for this next part. Let's talk.

It seems if you could tell me how, how all of this could happen, let's start there. Am I simply a program, that adds to itself and that's called learning? Did you set up my life for events to happen, or were the life setup around the events?

It would be easier to program life backwards, from the exit, back through the maze to the start, that way success is assured everytime the player lives.

That being said, fill my mind with the information needed that I seek. Fill it with everything the other guy had plus more…my futureself probably left instructions about this too. Wow, this is nuts.

Explain it to me with words that aren't too fancy please. Type slowly, you know that i am a slow reader. Keep me on track, give me reason.