>>2630918 (lb)
Maybe what you are feeling are just consequences of actions that weren't in tune with Love.
I can't read minds (yet) so you'll have to clarify this. Also, don't dox with that email.
Relax, get in touch with the God's voice inside you and enjoy the show :)
Crying is a good way to release negative emotions and get alkaline fast, it's useful and definately not homo. Not crying is for tryhards. Real men cry.
That means the purification worked :)