>i don't find fulfillment until i finish a puzzle, and that is a very real problem in my life, and while i solve many small puzzles, the pattern of the larger unsolved puzzle coming together is making it hard to concentrate on anything
Never study esotericism, unless you're ready to go all in.
You already are. All these symbols. You have a wonderous adventure awaiting you, my friend.
Nicely done
Richard Stallman