"So…why i feel like i wanna cry(but i cant), why i feel i'm not part of this world, why i feel that my mind is trapped and wants to set free ? Like months feeling all this i said before, why ?"
You are feeling the blocks of energy.
Meditate? yes.
Dmt? All agreed upon.
Dont get the crystal pure stuff.
Get something called Changa. (Pure nature herbs) Get a good spot with a friend.. Smoke untill u cant toke anymore and then you will see it all. Trust me on this. It is a fast way to knowing.
Also this is VERY important to remember every day;
Every single thing you touch.. is not YOUR responsibility. Every single fucking thing you touch.
WHAT?
yes… yes it is.
What do you do with the things you touch?
Do you leave it better or worse?
EVERY single thing you OWN takes energy of you.
EVERY SINGLE THING.
WHAT?
yes.
What do you do with it?
Is it clean?
How clean? Perfectly?
Do everything right the FIRST time.
That way you dont come back spending 70% more energy on it.
Energy in the astral more valuable than gold.
And in the astral and above is where your soul is.
So what the FUCK are you doing with it?
Laying it to rot?
Or making it shine like a badass mf?
All time is NOW time.
Future/present/past is happening NOW.
So what do you do, and how do you do it?
What does it look like around you?
Ever heard the saying;
"As inside so outside?"
Why do you think that is? from where does that come from?
Probably nothing right?
THINK.
As… inside….. so.. OUTSIDE.
When you go to another person and his shit looks like actual shit.. do you subthink; As this dude must have it great… No. you think he prob have it shit.. and thats waht i looks like shit.
What you do with ur things reflects on what you do with ur insides.
Because dear ones.. The universes are not outside of us.. it is inside. You should know that by now.
I posted prev sauce; Start reading it.
And then gain the power of alchemy.
The stone that turn metal to gold?
False.
The person that turn any feeling to Light.
(To gold)
the choice to know will be your own.
As to gematria it is a pattern.
Sauce; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6NkFemtrRZs
In this at one point he talks about he finds "error correcting" code that comes up. = https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wgSZA3NPpBs