Anons, I know this isn't a chat room but I need some advice.
I struggle with some pretty severe mental health problems that have been exacerbated (naturally) by this journey we've been on together. I'm in a dark place and I'm very scared. I know I need to get back to therapy and help, and I've limited the pharmaceuticals I will take because of what we know.
With all of the resignations, organizations rebuilding themselves, people who are supposedly "the best in their field" are being shown to be frauds.
Where do I turn? How do I know how to trust? I come here sometimes because it's the closest thing I feel is "home" anymore, but this whole saga grips me in a very physically painful way. I find the progress I've made in the past many, many years is being upended because until disclosure I feel so far removed from "normal".
Can anyone relate? I don't want to get into diagnosis or too specific, but I know I'm not alone, and I wonder how you cope?
Things that used to bring me joy just leave me empty.
I've lost friends, pushed people away, and been called far worse than crazy.
Of course as Autists growing up on the Chans there is a certain degree of this, but I really feel stuck in the darkness. My grandmother is all I have and I'm watching dementia take her away, and I don't know what next.
Apologies for the distraction, but it is night crew.