Sorry about your grandma. Thats a really big deal. Me I'm feeling happy and relieved about how Q is turning out. I honestly cried for weeks when I first got to /pol/ and saw how screwed up things were and I had been part of the problem.
Isn't everything groovy here now, though?
I talk to the chickens and turkey a lot. In their native tongue usually.
But, yeah, losing the only family in a slow way is really big. Lots of people never face that.