Your awakening is a grace, a gift, from God. In your prayer, thank Him for it.
I recommend not worrying about the end times. Jesus said we know not the day or hour they will come, but what is important is to be prepared. In other words continue to focus on your spiritual growth. Again, in your prayer ask God for that growth. Try this site for asking general questions…
https:// www.catholic.com
You are in my prayers