Hey anon's, dealing with a bit of an existential crisis here and I think some can relate.

I'm prior service and have been training for the last year to go back to do Special Forces. (Ruck, run and calisthenic scores are above excellent, could leave within the next month and surely pass selection.)

Sacrificed a lot and worked my fucking ass off to prepare for this.

I wanted to be a part of something unique and quite frankly unattainable for most.

I wanted to be a warrior. (don't care how cringey that sounds. eat a dick faggot)

I feel it's a major accomplishment in regards to masculinity.

>Recently became red pilled on how America is Israels puppet.

Been playing it up as "well this is a valuable skill set and excellent experience I couldn't receive otherwise. It's the only way. I'll try and get attached somewhere clear of the middle east."

But even still…

Literally everything the American armed forces do is in the interest of (((others))). I morally can't commit to that.

>FML

I don't mean to banter, I know it's not a fucking blog. But I feel like this is a dilemma that many men are facing now. For us to serve, to be warriors, we have to suffer to the will of (((them))).

What other avenue is there to obtain something similar? Or how do I work in the interest of my people in a similar field?

inb4

>hur dur good goy go die for israel

>kys