I use to read my bible everyday. God was my only hope for about 49 years. I remember as a 7 year old girl crying out to God. I was at the end of my rope at that point. And He touched me. He really did. Gave me hope for so many years. Then a heartache I couldn't bear brought me to despair. And I reached out to Him, like I always did. And He was silent.
And then I stopped believing.
Life took my hope away.
I realized that the same faith that gave me hope also led to my despair.
I'm hoping my faith returns through all of this. Life was much easier when I believed.
Is God real?