YES ANON!
finally being honest with myself about how much it was hurting me, and convincing myself that it mattered. I used to self harm, and I'm a people pleaser at heart, so I see where you're coming from. Ever since I ditched the dead weight (shitty people) from my life, good things are habbening. Its not easy, but now I spend my days fighting my demons instead of feeding them. You are strong enough, and brave enough, to endure the battle. You deserve a partner on your level. Keep your chin up. Sending you lots of love and prayers. (btw I am doing a lot better now. got a therapist and close friends, I am very blessed I had the realization I did before pulling out all of my hair. literally).