I know this might sound wierd but.. When I was younger and up late teens I used to have these same recurring nightmares about being raped(I could feel all of it as if it was happening for real and when I woke up I could feel it in my body all they had done to me.) by shadowy figures while they stod around me laughing and make wierd noises with glowing red eyes(some of them).

I have been awake for pretty much all my life and I have never really felt at home here in this "matrix". Its all starting to unravel now. When I have gone into my dreamstate I have most probably been in my real state of being. The same exact dream every time makes me alittle suspicuous of what it really means