anon's ignore this please,
The place I'm at doesn't feel safe, one of them is actively talking about damaging Q as much as they can and I don't know what to do. They tried to get me to think I was crazy several times this week and I still feel really sick and it doesn't seem to go away because this place feels wrong now. I would just leave and stay at a motel but what money I have isn't enough.
thank you for the advice… I did, but this is more complex than I can explain. well I said what I could and hopefully the right person got the message.
If I have to stay here I will, I got a message about staying at a motel but they either aren't aware or dont' realize how little money I have that it's just not an option. And even if I went to one it'd be a leap of faith that people would even take it from there. I'm confused and frustrated… and I can't say half of what I'd like to.
thank you, I can think of so many possibilities right now for what is actually going on here. I do trust the plan, and I get that it hasn't went in my case exactly the way it was probably intended and I have to adapt to that. living with someone who constantly hates on Trump and Q in hour long rants each day is niether easy nor fun and recently has made me feel crazy too but if that's the way it has to be so be it.
I am just trying to take my mind off it… I downloaded some anime and so that's sort of working. I used to have panic attacks and it feels like they are coming back I just have to get time to pass right now it seems. If I were just in a different situation I'd be more productive to the movement and extraordinarily optimistic instead of frustrated and feeling constantly sick and confused. so perhaps meditation is the solution so thank you, I'll consider it.
thank you. I consider myself smart and tough enough to handle any conflict of ideas but suddenly it all went nutty…
the situation I'm in problematic because the people around me appear to be angry which clearly the good guys know and they seem to think it's "a tantrum"… but they may not realize they are being dishonest, not in the way of hiding who they are (which they have to) but actually appear to have a growing malevolence and may be gearing up to make a very poor decision. I was posting to make sure the good guys were aware of my concerns and hopefully they have.
thank you, I may just tough it out here