I've seen "ships" most of my life. The earliest I can FULLY remember was at 14 yrs old and have seen them regularly for the last 42 yrs since. They've come in all shapes and sizes, sometimes even appearing out of thin air right in front of where I happened to be looking, at the time and once where my daughter and grandson could see it, too. My family has seen several over the years. I had the weird experience of what seemed to be something like a Morse Code coming into my head for 3 nights straight when I was in my late teens and would stay there until I became just too sleepy to listen anymore then it never returned after the 3rd night. I often see several different craft a year. Some I'm pretty sure belong to us, many I'm sure do not.We've caught what looked like plasma balls moving about the yard on camera but you could not see them with the naked eye, totally by accident. I don't bother trying to be ready to film any and it does little good to discuss it with most people considering how ignorant and closed minded most people on this damn planet are. I've met lots of people who have seen many of the same things as me and most feel pretty much the same about discussing it as me. The earliest I remember is the two I saw at 14 but throughout all this time, something keeps nagging at me that I experienced something of this kind at a much earlier age but I just can't remember anything about it. It's just a constant nagging feeling. Having experienced all this I have tried many a night (and day) to consciously make some kind of contact other than the regular sightings of ships but have, yet, to have THAT happen…that I know of, anyway. As grounded as I am in terra firma I would love nothing more than to see and know more of what else lies beyond this big blue ball in space but I will not "knowingly" court manipulation and deception because I know how this is used by all higher intelligent life to gain the upper hand in any potential contact/conflict situation and I wonder if that's what keeps me from experiencing further contact, so to speak. Humanity has taught me not to trust others at face value and it makes me wonder if that mistrust is a valid reason I see no physical "lifeform" contact. IDK. Ships/crafts I and others in the family see but nothing else and I'd really like to know why not?