I don't have answers, Anon, but I've felt the same way my entire life. And I've had enough Q-related dreams, synchronicities, and generally weird experiences to know something spiritual is happening on a very grand scale.
Have you ever read the infamous GATE threads? The extreme tl;dr is that /pol/ discovered a lot of unusual physical similarities and life experiences between the people who found themselves on the chans.
Thread I: https://archive.is/qQkpC
Thread II: https://archive.is/wced0
Thread III: https://archive.is/d0pID
Thread IV: https://archive.is/nNVa3
Thread V: https://archive.is/WWpf9