Suicidalanon here. I would really appreciate any guidance from you guys. I am really starting to question my sanity with this stuff. I sold my biz, my house, and have resided in a hotel since 9/1/18 because of the power of this movement. After 20k hours and 3 dead cat bounces I thought I was going to find financial freedom but today was catastrophic. It was probably trips meant to be as I felt myself wanting more and more. Anyway, I'm down but not out and I'm all in but I'm convinced most people believe I've got a screw loose. I just have so much bloody data and I'm obsessed, but broke. At least my prayer life is back and I frequently ask for God's grace and his presence with the heroes that sacrificed themselves for us.