I'm really sorry for you anon. I'm giving you a big virtual hug. Of course this can't happen without God! Have you not worked that out yet?
Fellow anons, this demonstrates why it appears so easy and why (((they))) don't know how to respond. They've wandered so far from the path, from God and the light that they are completely blind to the manifest power of the Almighty when it is as clear as day to you and I. Your magic swirls have no power my friend. There was never any power in that except intention. All the totems, pyramids, obelisks, sacrifices. Completely powerless against the one true power. Have you noticed it's not working any more. Honestly, I want to give you a hug. Learn the lesson and come back to the light.